Hello to anyone who has still stuck by me!
It has been ages, and I know, I say that to literally every single post. To be fair though- I’ve been quite busy!
A week before Results Day:
So it is a few days before Results Day and believe it or not, I actually didn’t really pay attention to it during the day. It was only once I lay in bed at night that all the fears and worries suddenly came over me. All the butterflies and stomach pains and nausea. But that was only because I organised myslef to be extremely busy during the days coming up to ‘Doomsday’. One thing I did was ask my manager for more shifts at work- I mean seriously, working in Retail definitely restricts you from thinking about anything apart from “Oh no, did I give that lady the correct change?!”. (Yes, I’m absolutely terrible at maths). I also had a few days out and about, such as me and my sisters going out to eat dinner. Oh, and the most effective way was by booking my Theory test for 2 days before Results Day!! That was definitely a really good way to get my mind wandering elsewhere as I had so much revision and preparation to do.
Morning of Results Day:
Oh, lord, the morning of. I woke up, threw some clothes on, put the teeniest amount of make- up on and ran out the house. I was literally petrified. I tried, tried my hardest to not think about it, but, uh that’s quite impossible. Oh and before I left, I gave a really cute message to my lovely sister who was also getting her results. Anyways, I was about 10 minutes early (8:20am) and so the school gates were locked. This was probably the worst part as it meant that I was just standing outside the building peeping into the school which held my fate. Literally. It was sort of laughing at me… And also, as more and more people started to turn up, I heard more and more stories. “Yes, I checked UCAS , and I’ve got in!” “I’ve been put through to clearing” “Me too”. Eventually however it turned 8:30 am and me and my bestest friend enetered, terrified of what will happen.
Opening my results:
So….it was finally the time to open it and I remember it so well. Before I did open it thoug, I told my friend to ‘skrrr’ over to the other other side LOL. Anyways I slowly peeled off the sticky part of the envelope and really, really slowly pulled out the paper. And whilst making a little prayer I read my FATE.
At first I was really relieved at what I got. Then I got an over-pouring sense of pride and content looking at my English Literature and Biology results. If you know me, you’d know how much I struggled with these two subjects, admittedly I wasn’t the best in them which is why I had such a low self-esteem and genuinly did think I’d fail at least one of them. Like literally, I told every single person I knew to be prepared if I failed, I didn’t want it to come as a surprise!! Seriously though, it was the hardest year of my life, I dedicated my whole year to revising so damn hard for it, especially for Biology. And so I was ecstatic that I got a B for both!!!! That may not be the best but it certainly was for me, I literally couldn’t be prouder of myself. Alhamdulillah x100000. And to top it off, I found out that I was 1 mark off an A in Biology…I mean, this is my biggest achievement in life by far. As I know how hard I worked for it. So anyways after all these crazy emotions, I also felt a little bit disappointed, maybe even shocked. As my grade for Sociology wasn’t what I expected. Not to toot my own horn but I was doing extremely well for the whole two years in Sociology, making me the “Queen of Sociology” in Sixth Form! But my real results didn’t correspond to that at all. I got a B. I spoke to my teacher about my disappointment and she simply said “sometimes exams don’t always reflect your true potential, but it’s fine because I know you’re a great Sociologist”. That’s what I’ve been keeping in mind, because it’s true. I know what I’m capable of and sometimes exams don’t always bring out the best in you. I believe that I spent a lot of time focusing on the other two subjects that I sort of neglected Sociology which lled to my grade slipping a bit. But it’s all good.
After opening results:
If you made it this far, AWESOME!
I hope you’ve enjoyed reading this quite personal story which I went in-depth with, I’ve really enjoyed going through the day all over again. I also forgot to mention that my friends all done really well, I didn’t hear any crying so that’s a good sign! My best friends passed with flying colours and the head teacher took some real cute pics of us (which I didn’t get to see!?). And I ended the day giving a few teachers good-bye hugs and giving all of them farewell (and personalised) cards.
Anyways, till next time, Tahmin x